Happ B-Day Ryan XOXOXO mr.beat up

happy b-day ryan hope your day was worderful even though you didn't feel good I want you to know that I love you and always will and you like skip the sad part man. you have realy done alot for this family your just realy realy special to but you just think that your a teen ager and you can just try to beat me up.
love you love always luke

From Mormie.....

Hey big boy! I can't believe you're 13! You are a wonderful gift from God, I have been blessed to know you and help take care of you when I'm there. When I think of you I always think of an angel, because that's what you are to me a beautiful redheaded angel! I absolutely love it when you smile, but then again who doesn't? I love you to pieces and hope you've had the best birthday ever!!

Love Mormie

From His Sissy:

Happy Birthday my sweet sweet Boy!! I want you to know that you are one of my most favorite people, living thirteen years is a big deal for such a special boy.I know that in life your supposed to live for the moment but today we are celebrating the past,*present*, and future.You are the sweetest thing that has ever been on this earth and you will always be my little God given angel. I want you to know that ill never regret taking care of you or staying home from doing something else because you are sick or cant make the trip. God give you to this family and to me for a very special purpose and that purpose is to show me love and has taught me a compassion that only comes from caring for someone special. You will always hold a spot in my heart. For all those times Ive scrooched up there next to you in your bed when your sick or I'm sad or just to love on you. I want to say thank you lord for the peace that i feel when I'm next to you all the time and especially those times.Remember Sissy loves you.
Sallie Ann Raines

Hey Brother!!! Happy Birthday! : ) I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!!! <3

The Big 13!!!

Ryan,
WOW! You are an amazing 13 years old. I am sooooo proud of what a strong, beautiful young man you are. I thank God each and every year....month...week...day...moment that you are here with me. I know that today wasn't the best as far as how you felt, but just celebrating your thirteenth birthday has been awesome. So many of your friends were here just to let you know that you are an inspiration to them all. ESPECIALLY ME..... I wish you could know how you have impacted me deep within my very soul. You are my precious angel. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Love, Mommie

Bright Daze

Ryan has been a hoot since yesterday. He has everybody in the house magnetized to him. He has smiled and talked (in his little way) and laughed in ways we haven't seen in a while. What a welcome experience!! Thank you Lord!!!

Anyways, Ryan sends his love to everyone as he hopes to be in services on Sunday morning. I hope all is well with all of 'yuns.


Oh, P.S. If you haven't got your seeds in the ground, you'd better get on that quick like & in a hurry!!

As of Late...

Today has been a better day for my little buddy. Since last Friday, Ryan has had much difficulty breathing. So much so, that the home-care supplier had to deliver another machine for increased oxygen. Last weekend was when things started to decline for Ryan, and the very worst day was Monday (the day of the oxygen delivery.)

His sweet Hospice nurse came out on Monday and subsequently called Brother's doctor. Dr. M prescribed several medications. Over the last several days, Ryan has felt better. He is no longer needing the extra oxygen, but is still dependent on respiratory assistance quite a bit throughout the day and especially at night.

It is during times like this, that as his Moma, I worry very much. I know that I shouldn't: for God is certainly in control. You see, when you love something so much that it actually feels as if it is a part of your very being, nothing seems to soothe your fears. It is difficult for me to fathom that even my Dear Lord himself loves Ryan far more than I. My heart and soul are convinced of God's boundless love, but my human mind sometimes becomes an obstacle; which the Lord so graciously helps me to overcome.

Ryan is not hindered by the silliness of fear or doubt. He is safe and secure in the love of his Lord, regardless of what place his soul dwells. I hurt so much inside over his physical afflictions; yet they do not alter Ryan's spirit. He continues to smile, never complaining. He continues to fight, never waivering.